Almost exactly twelve hours ago, I hugged my parents and my dog goodbye and took to the road. Although I managed to keep up a tough front for the sake of my family, I found the tears inevitably catching up to me as soon as I was out of sight from their garage…
…just as they are threatening to now.
Don’t get me wrong, I am excited, but committing myself to moving over two thousand miles away from my childhood home and more has been one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made. Still, I don’t regret it. I believe heading to the west coast and finding my place in Los Angeles is the best for me (all the modeling opportunities, the good schooling, the strong Japanese presence that I can relate with, etc)…
I just wish it hurt less right now.
I’m sorry. I meant to be more positive and write a happier post, but when it’s 1am and you’re sitting in a dark hotel room, all those equally dark thoughts can catch up to you. Putting up a disguise and feigning that this is simple and easy seems unfair for those of you who read this to learn more about me and who I am, so I figured… well, it’ll do me good to write it, so why not share it with you also?
I’ll be happy soon. I just need to adjust to these big changes now.
And such big changes they are.
As long as you have loving friends and family you will never be alone whether in some motel on an interstate exit in the middle of nowhere or in a vibrant city like LA.
Good luck on your journey and stay safe.
With risks come rewards if you are persistent…..I wish you all the best in your journey and hope you find good opportunities there, and are able to make good friends
Nothing ventured nothing gained, all you can do is give it an honest try 